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foolsguineaMy grandmother is physically freezing up & apparently it's my fault for not getting her to exercise more, & then not doing full extensions when I did help her with her exercises.
There's some other crap I don't really want to talk about.
And I have pretty much lost faith in democracy. I see all these stupid people who refuse to understand the math, the economics, or the basic principle of providing services through government that the private sector can't.
And I can't convince anyone, & if I say anything I just get an ad hominem attack about how if I were a better person, I could be contributing, I could be fixing all this in the private sector as a private citizen.
Well, I'm not a better person. I'm just a flawed, daft, planks-in-the-eyes-you-could-use-as-tentpoles person who realizes that private initiative can't really do everything.
(There is no cost-benefit analysis that makes government look perfectly "worth it" to the sort of person who wants every tax dollar to mean a benefit to the taxpayer. Think of it like loss of energy to heat in physics: Government, like any machine, operates at less than 100% efficiency. All machines lose energy; that doesn't mean they're not worth building.)
But I'm just so sick of it all. I'm feeling too depressed & worn down to try to campaign, to try to fight. I can't change anyone's mind, I just don't want to deal with it anymore.
(Despite the title of this post, I'm not actually joining al Qaeda. I don't really have the energy.)
And that's what I have to fight through.
Today I watched Drew Barrymore's movie of Whip It, & that cheered me up. Then I got into a stupid argument on the internet, & got even lower.
There's some other crap I don't really want to talk about.
And I have pretty much lost faith in democracy. I see all these stupid people who refuse to understand the math, the economics, or the basic principle of providing services through government that the private sector can't.
And I can't convince anyone, & if I say anything I just get an ad hominem attack about how if I were a better person, I could be contributing, I could be fixing all this in the private sector as a private citizen.
Well, I'm not a better person. I'm just a flawed, daft, planks-in-the-eyes-you-could-use-as-tentpoles person who realizes that private initiative can't really do everything.
(There is no cost-benefit analysis that makes government look perfectly "worth it" to the sort of person who wants every tax dollar to mean a benefit to the taxpayer. Think of it like loss of energy to heat in physics: Government, like any machine, operates at less than 100% efficiency. All machines lose energy; that doesn't mean they're not worth building.)
But I'm just so sick of it all. I'm feeling too depressed & worn down to try to campaign, to try to fight. I can't change anyone's mind, I just don't want to deal with it anymore.
(Despite the title of this post, I'm not actually joining al Qaeda. I don't really have the energy.)
And that's what I have to fight through.
Today I watched Drew Barrymore's movie of Whip It, & that cheered me up. Then I got into a stupid argument on the internet, & got even lower.
